another day of self medicating but different
Bipolar is such a freaky,weird illness.Felt fine on sat. and sun. but here it is Monday and im down as a mamma jamma right now.So what do i decide to do,get some white powdery stuff for the day.I have enough to just "chip away at it all day" but I almost hate doing it even tho it feels so good to me.Much better than the badness i feel right now.I gotta be able to stop this drugging my pain away. Ive been alcoholically sober(if that makes any sense) but not completely soberand i am not proud of it. proud of not drinking but not proud about my state of being. I love all you guys and appreciate you immensely.
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One addiction at a time my dear!what is making you feel bad?Is it a situationyu can change?or is it withdrawl of drugs. everyone is diffrent. booze kicked my ass, drugs didn\'t go figure! Hang in there! I know it sux just focus on now and try to be happy!
nothing situational just meds needing to be adjusted again.thanks for being so supportive. you rock and rule!
Hun I was a big user of the same and i always thought it was bringing me up but when you are done being high you feel terrible when done. think about what is really bothering you and then try to deal with it. I am here if you ever want to talk ...that white stuff used to be my best friend for years and years.
Awww I know how that feels I still get depressed but you know what? you are a strong woman of God and im so proud of you staying sober YAY 4 lola!!!!
I adore your honesty honey but really, start SHARING already!!!!!!!