Another Day....

After a couple of really bad days, I am finally getting back to "normal"  (ok...as "normal" as i'm gonna get. lol) 

Hubby, a coworker, both sister-in-laws all ganged up on me with their helpful advice. Sadly, all now know me like an open book.  They did mean well (I think), but they all know that FEAR and GUILT will stop me dead in my tracks.....and it did....for now.  I told hubby and his sis that I would think a bit more before i do proceed.  So the  anger has disappeared for now.

I am trying like hell to realize what I want and need (after never allowing myself to even dare have "needs") And while I do struggle to continue to speak up and stand up for me (finally) Ihave come to realize that I am a caring, attractive, intelligent,sexy, creative, woman. I only hope anyone who would happen to read this would understand that I do say these things to continue to convince myself (since , on occasion still, a few words can bring some very spiteful, cruel words that i would hear a very long time ago from  a very dysfunctional family member right  back causing me to doubt all the positive messages so many have been working to help me finally accept)   I have come a long way. Still just a smidge further to go.