Another day

Another day of going through the motions of living.  There is no joy to life anymore.  Even though I have a significant other I find I can't talk to her.  Everytime I try to talk to her about something it she either cuts me off and tries to resolve the issue or turns it around so it's all about her.  Therefore I just keep it to myself.  I consider myself an extreme introvert.  I have very few friends and only one I feel comfortable opening up to.  I keep everything inside.  I was doing okay after the doctor weaned me off my anti-depression meds, but the depression is coming back and with it a lot of anger.  I don't want to go back on the meds because they make me feel like a zombie.  I become almost emotionless.  I have an appointment with my doctor on Monday.  I doubt that I will tell her what is going on because I don't want to go back on the meds.  I would rather deal with the feelings and emotions than feeling numb.