Another Birthday

So tomorrow I will be 46.  I have been thinking back to when I was 42 and went into septic shock.  That is the cause of all my amputations.  Recently, I have realized, I just go thru the motions of life and I am not accepting "my fate" in life.  I hate not having my old life.  I want to be at work and doing all the things I used to do.  There is nothing in my life, right now, that resembles my old life.
Lost my friends because they didn't know "how to deal" with me.  And that was BEFORE any amputations!