Another beautiful day in Paradise
Well I called my family doctor to ask for advice about my crown(still haven't found it!).Boy I make everyone's day with my story. My doctor is older than me and even over the bad connection on my cell I could tell he could hardly keep from laughing! First thing he said was "Now years ago I had a lot of patients swallow unusual things like crowns and teeth, but that was when I worked pediatrics! Now I am in gerontology and I never hear these stories any more."So I am to stop worrying about it, it has already come out or will very soon. Well we shall see!
I don't know if anyone who reads this has had this come up, but I am realizing that it has been 3 years almost, since I had to leave home and over a year since the final divorce and I have not dated or seen anyone. I keep seeing on TV, etc., these dating sites for seniors. So I went to a couple of sites to look around. Well they allowed me to in put my info for free and then show you some matches, but some of them to actually connect you have to purchase a membership. Not only am I afraid of meeting some weirdo, I can't stop thinking of my ex. I keep looking to see if he is on any of these sites. I keep wondering who he is seeing or is he seeing anyone. He is the one that told me he didn't want me in his life anymore and told me I couldn't come home, but I still love him. Why am I doing this to myself. I know it is wrong and sick. The man has treated me like dirt...married or not married. But I still feel like there is hope some day. I keep thinking maybe we can be friends or even more. And when I read the stories from these dating sites, I am drawn to what my ex liked, or talked about doing when I first met him. I was reading about a guy that was 5 years short of being born in Norway and thinking I wonder if he is like my ex. My ex was Norwegian and Russian. Why do I care? I don't have his last name anymore and I am NOT Norwegian. But I think gee I wonder if he is like R? So I guess to answer my own question "No I am not ready to date yet". But when will I be? I really think all though it will kill me for a while, knowing that the ex is dating will help bring a finality or closure to this part of my life. I don't want to do that , but I know I should. I know it will be better for me, but I just hate the thought.
So will let you all know when and if I ever actually use a dating site and if I ever actually go on a date or meet any kind of a male. Ha Ha . I guess that is it for tonight.
I don't know if anyone who reads this has had this come up, but I am realizing that it has been 3 years almost, since I had to leave home and over a year since the final divorce and I have not dated or seen anyone. I keep seeing on TV, etc., these dating sites for seniors. So I went to a couple of sites to look around. Well they allowed me to in put my info for free and then show you some matches, but some of them to actually connect you have to purchase a membership. Not only am I afraid of meeting some weirdo, I can't stop thinking of my ex. I keep looking to see if he is on any of these sites. I keep wondering who he is seeing or is he seeing anyone. He is the one that told me he didn't want me in his life anymore and told me I couldn't come home, but I still love him. Why am I doing this to myself. I know it is wrong and sick. The man has treated me like dirt...married or not married. But I still feel like there is hope some day. I keep thinking maybe we can be friends or even more. And when I read the stories from these dating sites, I am drawn to what my ex liked, or talked about doing when I first met him. I was reading about a guy that was 5 years short of being born in Norway and thinking I wonder if he is like my ex. My ex was Norwegian and Russian. Why do I care? I don't have his last name anymore and I am NOT Norwegian. But I think gee I wonder if he is like R? So I guess to answer my own question "No I am not ready to date yet". But when will I be? I really think all though it will kill me for a while, knowing that the ex is dating will help bring a finality or closure to this part of my life. I don't want to do that , but I know I should. I know it will be better for me, but I just hate the thought.
So will let you all know when and if I ever actually use a dating site and if I ever actually go on a date or meet any kind of a male. Ha Ha . I guess that is it for tonight.
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