another bad day

So today it seems like I spent most of it crying.  I don't understand how some days seem ok & then out of nowhere I have days when all I do is cry.  Today was one of those days.  I miss my husband.  I miss having him here to talk with & go out with & to help me with decisions.  I hate making decisions.  Why does it seem like I am getting worse & not better.  Why can't I get the pictures out of my head from the day my husband died. Why does it seem every song I hear just makes  me what to cry.  I am exhausted & I look like crap.  I can't sleep so I have really bad bags under my eyes.  Does any one out there have suggestions on how to get rid of dark circles, haha. 
 So I am going to try to get some sleep.  I will probably get at least one or two hours of sleep.