Another bad day

Aaron went back yesterday i'm getting used to it now but i do miss just not having him here.Yesterday  there actually felt there was a big hole in my heart it was horrible i put myself to bed in the afternoon.Marc has nearly finished the pond and had put the fish in but  i found it hard to interested all i thought is that dad would not be round to look and put his input in.Mum and dad had a pet shop so he knew what he was talking about.I had to go to work last night it is helping well i wouldn't say helping it just takes your mind of it a bit. mind you ther's afriend of mine that comes in(i wouldn't say close) she has the worse diabetis and she sits there knocking back pints of cider and moaning about her son then wonders why she having lots of hypo's.This does make me angry.It's my Liam's birthday tomorrow and it's his first birthday without his popa.He going to spend it with his dad that's a first.he might think he feel better by being  away.So we going to take him out tuesday.He's got football today and tuesday night and charlton scouts are going to watch game so hopefully dad will be watching him.Go Liam Go.Dad please give me a sign as im missing you so much.Love you loads xxx