Another Ah-Ha!
I had such an epiphany this a.m. in meditation I’m not sure I can put it into words, but I will try.
For these past few days, to my surprise, I have felt a strong self -hatred for myself; couldn’t stand myself and couldn’t stand to look at myself in the mirror. I have had two attempts at cutting my hair; I want to shave it off. What is that all about! Now I know.
Anyway, this morning, something came to me during meditation that I tell other’s to do all the time (I’m so good at telling other’s what to do! Te-he! What came to me was what I call REF…Don’t resist it, Embrace it, and don’t Fight it! So in my quiet time, that is what I did. I embraced the self-hatred, I didn’t fight it and I didn’t resist it; then I said “what is going on here?” Spirit gentle said these words “every day you pray to “Accept the Love of God/Goodness in you” and you will not allow that to happen!”
I began to cry and I think what was said must be true because I believe we always cry at the TRUTH! Anyway, I began to think of how my son told me the other day how much I meant to him and how much he can see I have changed; I got a text from my daughter two days ago telling me “thank-you” for always accepting me where I am and teaching me the many things you have taught me…I have so much respect for you; yesterday, I went out to relieve a friend of mine who has her 6yr. old granddaughter here visiting for two weeks and she said to me “I don’t know what I would do without you, you always show up at the right time! My friends in my class tell me all the time how grateful they are I started the class! I now speak to every one of my siblings and I never thought that would be possible! Enough said as there are too many healings to mention.
Crying, crying and more crying (releasing) I realized how I was NOT ACCEPTING ALL THE GOODNESS IN ME AND OUTSIDE OF ME! It was a HUGE AWARENESS/EPIPHANY for me as I don’t think I was accepting! Today I am truly accepting and so grateful I didn’t fight what was going on, embraced it and now transcending it! Yippppeeee!
I think it is rather odd I posted the quote “You can never transcend what you first fail to embrace!” The Universe is pretty darn smart.
Thank-you all for being my Teacher!
Hugszzzzz, Vicki
For these past few days, to my surprise, I have felt a strong self -hatred for myself; couldn’t stand myself and couldn’t stand to look at myself in the mirror. I have had two attempts at cutting my hair; I want to shave it off. What is that all about! Now I know.
Anyway, this morning, something came to me during meditation that I tell other’s to do all the time (I’m so good at telling other’s what to do! Te-he! What came to me was what I call REF…Don’t resist it, Embrace it, and don’t Fight it! So in my quiet time, that is what I did. I embraced the self-hatred, I didn’t fight it and I didn’t resist it; then I said “what is going on here?” Spirit gentle said these words “every day you pray to “Accept the Love of God/Goodness in you” and you will not allow that to happen!”
I began to cry and I think what was said must be true because I believe we always cry at the TRUTH! Anyway, I began to think of how my son told me the other day how much I meant to him and how much he can see I have changed; I got a text from my daughter two days ago telling me “thank-you” for always accepting me where I am and teaching me the many things you have taught me…I have so much respect for you; yesterday, I went out to relieve a friend of mine who has her 6yr. old granddaughter here visiting for two weeks and she said to me “I don’t know what I would do without you, you always show up at the right time! My friends in my class tell me all the time how grateful they are I started the class! I now speak to every one of my siblings and I never thought that would be possible! Enough said as there are too many healings to mention.
Crying, crying and more crying (releasing) I realized how I was NOT ACCEPTING ALL THE GOODNESS IN ME AND OUTSIDE OF ME! It was a HUGE AWARENESS/EPIPHANY for me as I don’t think I was accepting! Today I am truly accepting and so grateful I didn’t fight what was going on, embraced it and now transcending it! Yippppeeee!
I think it is rather odd I posted the quote “You can never transcend what you first fail to embrace!” The Universe is pretty darn smart.
Thank-you all for being my Teacher!
Hugszzzzz, Vicki
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Congratulations! During my typical \"Walking Meditation\" (mind going, \"blah, blah, blah...\") My wise mind slipped a little something in to the effect that all of my weaknesses also have strengths, from another viewpoint. The cycle effect from outside the circle is that one edge of the circle is close and the other is farther away. In the center, it is always the same distance; hence Buddha\'s \"centeredness teachings?
Great insights for you, and good teaching,
Rich
Hi Vicki,
Wow, great. We are so ready to accept what we see as negative about self, but there is joy, lightness and love within as well. :-)
Hugs,
Shar
This is wonderful to read Vicki. It warmed my heart :)