Anniversary tomorrow

Tomorrow is Geo and my 7 year anniversary. I'm going to cook him steak, zucchini, and mashed potatoes. We are also going to try and go see The Avengers as well. I have a free movie ticket for donating blood. I can't believe it's been 7 years already. It seem like such a short time, but also like we have been together forever. I can't imagine life without him. I don't want to lose him, but I find myself pushing him away. He knows that I do that, but still it's hard on him. I have told him all this crazy stuff, especially when I was in the cult, and he still sticks by me. It's one of the reasons I love him so much. He puts up with all my crazy antics. I don't know anyone else who would stick by me through all I have put him through. He just knows I have my cycles and knows it's just temporary. I'm actually going through one right now, with our anniversary tomorrow. It reminds me how good he is for me and that I don't deserve him. At least that's how I feel now.
I managed to make it into work today. I so didn't want to go, but I went anyway. I was dizzy for a bit in the middle of my shift, but it went away by the end. I'm starting to hallucinate a bit again. Today was the parade and party for the Miami Heat winning the championship so there were few people in the clinic. It was the emptiest I have ever seen it. I was the only volunteer who showed up. At least of the many who work at the Information Desk. One of the volunteers who works there as her retirement fell the other day and I don't know how long she's going to be out. I hope she's doing fine... It's always bad when older people fall.
Food today was good.. I'm under my calories a bit, but I'm going to go crazy tomorrow, so it makes up for it. If I go to the movies I have to have my popcorn, and Geo wants his Skittles. We might stop at the dollar store before we go in to get more treats too. The movie is early tomorrow, so we have to be up early. I don't know if we are taking the bus or getting the truck. Either way, we might go out to lunch either before or after the movie. I don't know where we would go... Maybe the Chinese place where we went on our first date. I'm not sure. All I know is that I need to go to bed on time tonight so I can get my sleep. I've been having broken sleep in the morning and I don't know why. Maybe I'm a bit hypomanic? I don't know. My moods are swinging like crazy anyway.