angry at God...if there IS one....

i was talking to my therapist today and i told her that i wasn't angry at my rapists....i'm angry at God, if there IS a God.....see i was raised catholic and now i'm agnostic.....and when i was a little girl i was told that God created everyone....so why did God create these two men??? why did he create these two rapists???? why did he make these men rape me??? WHY????????????? what did i do wrong to deserve this???? i don't mean to sound pitiful and go "oh, poor me!!!" i don't want a pity party, i wanna know why God decided that i was the one to get raped....twice.....why did God create these two awful men to do these things to me??????? i'm so angry at God, if there even IS a God....and i'm kind of angry at myself for not fighting back, for this last rape....