Anger, Sadness, and Heartache...
I never believe anything anymore. If someone's nice to me, there's something in it for them. Everyone lies. Everyone cheats. Everyone steps on everyone else. I wish I was 18 and stupid again. I wish I could have remained clueless for the rest of my life. I wish I didn't know that people like my husband were even out there. I wish I still believed that there were good men out there who would never do a single thing to hurt their wives. I wish I still saw the world like a flower garden, beautiful and smelling sweet. Instead, I see it for what it really is- cold, dark, and painful. Ignorance really is bliss.
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Melinda, seems like youre in a rather dark place as of late. Obviously I cant know what your feeling and experiencing but I think most of us here at DS have been in or are in our own dark place, at least from time to time. The world is cold, dark and painful but it is also warm, light, and pleasant. The former may seem to dominate our world at times but we only know that because weve experienced the later and know it exists. I hope youre able to work through this and that the moment passes. BTW, I dont think you were every ignorant, just honest & genuine and expected others you trusted to be the same, if so the expectation is not wrong. I hope you find others who can be as honest & genuine with you as you are with them. Take care.