Anger, Sadness, and Heartache...

I never believe anything anymore.  If someone's nice to me, there's something in it for them.  Everyone lies.  Everyone cheats.  Everyone steps on everyone else.  I wish I was 18 and stupid again.  I wish I could have remained clueless for the rest of my life.  I wish I didn't know that people like my husband were even out there.  I wish I still believed that there were good men out there who would never do a single thing to hurt their wives.  I wish I still saw the world like a flower garden, beautiful and smelling sweet.  Instead, I see it for what it really is- cold, dark, and painful.  Ignorance really is bliss.