And There It Is....
I've witnessed the sadness, felt the guilt...here comes the anger I did expect .
I did post this past week his sudden proclamation of our 15 years together, both in front of a church congregation, then on facebook. Apparently, he thought all was good again.
Today I was off. I had things I wanted to do and truthfully, I wanted to spend a bit of time kicking back. He wanted to go to a meet and greet with some of the talk radio guys at a nearby fair. As the day progressed he mentioned going I told him I thought he should go ahead since he did really want to go and doesn't do much . The next remark was about me saying we never do anything together. here was an opportunity....What was he supposed to think? I told him...it really doesn't matter. I do still want a divorce.
With that I got the "Really??" As he stormed off into the next room slamming the door behind him. Then through the door he grumbles I'll be paying all the legal fees. he was like a sulking child (again trying the guilt too.)
I took it upon myself to check into getting a small chunk of cash .My wheels are turning...figuring out what i do need to get started (as well as to continue to pay off old debt) I mentioned to him about doing the same....he doesn't even care. is not worried. That translates to me once again that I am in this all alone. He is going to do just as he always does when he doesn't get his way.....
It is just like dragging a sulking, whining child through a store.....if I do think about it i have dealt with this before. He has calmed down now. Unfortunately financially i may need to stay one more month. But it should all be old hat by now.
In my mind, all the things i will regain when back by myself does give me the light at the end off this tunnel and what I have tolook forward to.
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Ah yes, the way too little way too late. As in - he's just NOW hearing you. But, in the end doesn't really care one way or the other.
You will be paying all of the legal fees in his dreams! Back on planet earth, you will pay yours, he will pay his.
I'll give you my ex's number to give to your stbx so the two ostriches can commiserate with how their lives have been ruined by their wives. So sad, really, but that's their doing.
Today i am having a very tough day. While I still look forward to being back out on my own, with the struggle and the dead weight I drag with me...plus nasty divorce horror stories from a coworker I have never felt more alone (not for a very long time.)