And there goes the rug from underneath me again

And now my last friend has cut me out of her life, and the theatre company, as well. I feel that I was right to stand my ground, and refuse to promise a thing which I was not certain about. That I was justified in maintaining the right to choose for myself, not just obey because they thought it was the only course of action. Even if j did go bananas, there have been bad shows before. If she did call the cops, that's her choice, and her responsibility. I've done nothing to merit that level of response. That level of hatred. One of the people who checked in with me last night - the conversation went like this: "I've been asked to never darken thier doorstep again." "That's a little overdramatic and dishonest of you." "I stood firm in my own resolve." "No, you were being stubborn, and were ready to ruin the show." I saw the negation, said good night. She responded "I've watched as you complain about people abandoning you and betraying you, and it just makes me angry. You're the common thread in all these situations, and you keep reaching out to pull people into your drama. You need to be ok with you, and then people will stop having to be so harsh with you. I'm defriending you now, just because I don't need negative people in my life." I replied "Very well. I appreciate the honesty. I do have to point out that you negated and denied nearly every single statement I made over the course of this conversation, so... yeah. I don't really need someone like you in my life either. Thanks, and Godspeed." Aside from my wife, my job, and my kids, I've got nothing left of my life of a year ago. I'm trying so hard to keep focused on the positive, but I'll admit it HURTS. What's the point of being good and loyal and kind, if this is the only thing you get in return - being sucked dry while you give, and then cast aside when you become a liability? Since when is 'we're arguing, therefore I'm ending the relationship totally' become standard practice? Why is no one willing to actually discuss and understand? Why are people comfortable with piling on more crap, wwhen they know how much I've already got on my plate? It's curl up in a ball and weep time again. Not literally, I'm at work, but... yeah. I am not a monster. I am not unreasonable. I am not irrational. And they're going to regret letting me go - I was the heart of the company. I have had several actors tell me that they were the only reason they've been coming back. Others admit that the owners terrify them, and they're just flat out rude and ungrateful and close-minded. They refused to believe me, and dismissed my concerns when I pointed out how many grass fires I put out amongst the casts. They'll see.