And the shite hits the fan (again)
23 Feb 13 7:14pm
Just when I was starting to piece my life back together, the trifecta comes along and crushes me again.
First my sister got more bad news about her brain tumor. She's still bald from chemo (last session was late Jan) and now this crap about her tumor. Basically, the CyberKnife radiation guy doesn't want to risk working on it and the surgeon says the same thing. So she's going back and forth between them with no plan. Since the tumor has grown into and around her spinal cord, they're afraid they'll make her a vegetable or close enough. She won't be able to speak or understand any language, music, art, etc. She'll hear sound but not understand anything. She'd have to go into a nursing home (or something similar) and that would be the end of her life really. She's said she'd rather be dead than alone in her head, unable to communicate. I'm just heartbroken.
Than my mom says she's going to lose her house (she's SEVEN months behind on mortgage!!!), like in a week. WTF? How can she be so irresponsible? And why wait until it's a week away to even mention it? I'm so upset with her. She lets her sons suck her dry and then turns to me. Whatever.
Now the new HR person at work is trying to get me fired. I've been working there since 1985!!! Full time since 2001!! And now this bully is trying to intimidate me into leaving. He's been there a month. Part of my problem is that the previous HR person, Chet, was so awesome and we always just spoke about things. I don't have everything in WRITING that we agreed upon. Now Chet's retired and this jerk is reneging on all the agreements. He's even trying to prevent me from ever coming back, even if I get healthy again. And of course, he's determined to take away my health insurance.
Yeah, so these are the worst things but there are others. Like this week has been pure CP HELL. I was in such pain yesterday, I just laid in bed and cried. I couldn't eat or drink and barely was able to walk to the bathroom. I feel like I'm just a day away from losing it. And I'm so very tired of being in such pain.
Yeah, life sucks right now. I'm sure it will improve and all that. But right this minute? I wish I were an elf.
Just when I was starting to piece my life back together, the trifecta comes along and crushes me again.
First my sister got more bad news about her brain tumor. She's still bald from chemo (last session was late Jan) and now this crap about her tumor. Basically, the CyberKnife radiation guy doesn't want to risk working on it and the surgeon says the same thing. So she's going back and forth between them with no plan. Since the tumor has grown into and around her spinal cord, they're afraid they'll make her a vegetable or close enough. She won't be able to speak or understand any language, music, art, etc. She'll hear sound but not understand anything. She'd have to go into a nursing home (or something similar) and that would be the end of her life really. She's said she'd rather be dead than alone in her head, unable to communicate. I'm just heartbroken.
Than my mom says she's going to lose her house (she's SEVEN months behind on mortgage!!!), like in a week. WTF? How can she be so irresponsible? And why wait until it's a week away to even mention it? I'm so upset with her. She lets her sons suck her dry and then turns to me. Whatever.
Now the new HR person at work is trying to get me fired. I've been working there since 1985!!! Full time since 2001!! And now this bully is trying to intimidate me into leaving. He's been there a month. Part of my problem is that the previous HR person, Chet, was so awesome and we always just spoke about things. I don't have everything in WRITING that we agreed upon. Now Chet's retired and this jerk is reneging on all the agreements. He's even trying to prevent me from ever coming back, even if I get healthy again. And of course, he's determined to take away my health insurance.
Yeah, so these are the worst things but there are others. Like this week has been pure CP HELL. I was in such pain yesterday, I just laid in bed and cried. I couldn't eat or drink and barely was able to walk to the bathroom. I feel like I'm just a day away from losing it. And I'm so very tired of being in such pain.
Yeah, life sucks right now. I'm sure it will improve and all that. But right this minute? I wish I were an elf.
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I\'m sorry you\'re having such a rough time. I\'m praying for you. God bless you.
So sorry things are so awful again..Wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything good for you. Stay warm my friend. Lots of hugs and prayers. Just worry about getting well..Cheryl...