And So It Begins.....

Well everyone told me this day would come and I just wouldn't believe it. I mean why would someone put so much effort in leaving be so determined that this was the best thing to do even when I told him he would regret it and be sorry. Why would he ever want to come home if he was so happy to leave????? Well today I got my first "I'm so sorry T"
"Don't give up on me please" oh and my favorite "I can change and be the man that you guys deserve" I just don't know what to do with this. I got through the initial shock, spent countless hours crying, I mean my eyes are just now healing from raw skin and puffiness under my eyes. I got through packing up my house, moving us into a place I could afford, taking time off work to deal with everything, paid off the bills ect... Thought my life was moving towards a certain direction now a direction without him and now he has thrown a big wrench in the road with "Don't give up on me"???????
I just don't get it.....