And so it begins

Well the wife emailed today and said she wanted a divorce rather than a legal separation. Its about damn time!! Ive spent the last 3 months wondering and trying and hurting and just about everything. I feel this is the only true decision she has made since we began this debacle. Yet I find peace in all of this. The love I hold for my soon to be X, or STBX if you will, lol. I was kinda hoping I would never have to say that here on DS, but no worries either way, the love I hold for  her is something no one could ever take away from me. Yes our journey through life together ended shorter than I had ever anticipated but, I only pray she truly finds what she is looking for in life and becomes happy. I know she doesnt feel the same for me but, I have found my light. I had to come crashing down to the bottom to find it but by the grace of God I came back running. That too no one can take from me. I am a better person from all of this regardless of what my wife has done to me. I know in time she will understand that she made a horrible mistake and I pray that she will understand that God still holds light for her too. I will miss my wife and step daughter dearly, it almost brings me to tears but, now is the time to hold and burn my candle brighter than ever. Soon enough I will find someone to share my light with and to share this beautiful life together. This time I will get it right. For now I just want to spend some time with my dog Lambeau and relax a bit. Have a nice glass of scotch and watch the sunset and think back on how much better and stronger I have become through all of this. I have many of you on DS to thank and credit for the strength I have acquired along the way. Your kindness and support has held me together through the toughest part of my life. Thank all of you who have helped me along the way and continue to give kind words and support. You all have been a true blessing and again no one can take that from me. So forward I move on in my life, not quite knowing whats next but, I wouldnt have it any other way!
God bless all of you and the light that you shine so bright!