And part of why today sucked...

Did I mention that I also have OCD and about 2 weeks ago had fairly major foot surgery.  Well this weekend was my daughters 6th birthday party.  (Planned way before we knew about the surgery).  And it was going to be awesome.  I had been planning and making stuff for months.  My in-laws came up to help us get ready for the party and some of the moms came early to help set up and some stayed late to do a cursory clean-up.  We took Sunday as a rest day because the kids were "helping" too much. And I was going to clean today while they were at camp.
OMG, just OMG
nothing was where it was supposed to be or even in places that made sense to me.  Every time I would go to put something away I would find something WRONG already there and have to put it where it went.
I am really grateful for all the help I had.  I am.  But until today I didn't really think of myself as a person with OCD.  In the past it hasn't been a huge issue.  Apparently in the past I have been a total control freak who wouldn't let anyone help.  Now I know why.
So there it is.  Today sucked because I have OCD and today was the day that it hit me that I have regular OCD too (not just pure obsessive).
 
My husband was so proud of how much I got done today.  He is amazing.  But all I could do was cry, I tried explaining.  He tries to understand.  Yes I got a lot done today but the price was so, so high.  Cleaning up should NOT have to be so much work, it should NOT cause an anxiety attack that lasts most of the day (but it did).  And it's not fair.  Oh I know life isn't fair and I have long ago stopped expecting it to be.  But today...well today it bothered me.
Please, oh please let tomorrow be easier.