and not 3 days later...

not 3 days later from the previous post, and we're in the middle of a major blowout again. trust issues 101, except this time its 202, and i'm the idiot. fool me once, shame on you, etc.! Now what? honestly I don't really know. I want out - but I don't really. I want counseling, but we can't really afford it, and its too sensitive to find someone without a massive referral, and in this neighbourhood - who knows who we'd get.