And Life was beautiful

I crawled up out of my grave today. Pain, more pain, nausea, different pain, pain intensified, nausea, Pain, more pain.....Were you praying for me?  Aha.  I never understand how this happens.  I hadn't showered in a week, eeeeek, due to pain everywhere, nausea and difficulty standing on my left leg for even 3 minutes.  Oh, and showers are very exhausting to me, drain the 1 % of energy I have, I get out and feel I am going to pass out from the exhaustion and dizziness.  Is this really my life, is this really me saying this?  Wow.  My how things have changed.  I don't recognize myself anymore.  There's this new old, tired, sick person in my place.  Nausea usually starts late afternoon to early evening and here we go, get out the ginger ale and crackers, buttermilk too if there is any.  Today's nausea started when I first got out of bed and have treated it the entire day until now, bedtime.  I have been a zombie gripped by the pain monsters in an extra bad way for weeks and weeks.  I recall one evening a few days back that there was less pain.  It always returns, pain is my default status.  I couldn't stand myself today due to needing a shower bad but the bad nausea from morning on top 100 tons of pain all over, couldn't do it.  I napped.  I awoke and thought for a moment, nausea gone!  Yippee!  Pain gone?  60% pain relief!  What? Peripheral edema wayyyy down.  OK, shower time.  One more thing, mentally alert!!  Oh yes, yes, yes, yes, I crawled up out of my grave today.  I strolled around in awe and Life was beautiful for 6 whole hours. :)   Sherry

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AzSherryberry
AzSherryberry

I should note, the nausea vanished long enough for me to shower then it returned. Still, it was a miracle to me. : )
goodfight
goodfight

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers! I only wish I could help you with your struggle against the pain.
AzSherryberry
AzSherryberry

Thanks goodfight. Nice that you always read my journal entries. Hope your day is a good one. : )
vjewel
vjewel

YOU ARE \"ONE STRONG HUMAN BEING!\" I SO ADMIRE HOW YOU ALWAYS MANAGE TO KEEP \"HOPE\" ALIVE. WHAT AN HONOR TO BE SHARING WITH SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND I HOPE LIFE PRESENTS YOU WITH A SEVEN- HOUR STROLL THE NEXT TIME.
YOUR HOPE FRIEND.........VICKI
AzSherryberry
AzSherryberry

Oh dear Vicki, gave me a smile and nearly some tears! Thank you! I am so glad I have a HOPE partner here too. As far as I\'m concerned that is the very one thing I cannot lose and I want to shout it from the rooftops. You take care of you and I HOPE and wish good things to happen in your life today, tomorrow, the next..... : )
~~Sherry
deleted_user
deleted_user

Have you tried getting a shower chair? I have one, it really helps, some days just to lean on..the days I can\'t stand to sit...others to sit...lol the days I can\'t stand to stand. I got mine at Wal-Mart, I don\'t remember how much it was but I know it was worth it.
AzSherryberry
AzSherryberry

I have one, very small with round seat for a small shower stall. It helps on those days I cannot seem to stand more than a couple minutes. Thanks Jess. : )