And here comes another...

Today has been quite a whirlwind of emotions for me.  I started my AF today and am now calling the doc for a scan to get ready for IUI #2.  Ever since I got the cramps, which informed me it was coming on Saturday, I have been so up and down.  I'm fine one minute and can handle the world and the next I am crying and feel like giving up on this whole fertility roller coaster. My anxiety has been higher so I'm trying to medidate twice a day just so I can try to calm down and relax. Not sure if my hormones have anything to do with it, but I'm sure it doesn't help. 
Not to mention all of the following has happened today in the past 4 hours: 1) got a pic sent to our whole office of a co-worker's new baby, adorable baby but def didn't make me feel better today 2) My little cousin from out of town texts me and wants to stop by with her new baby while she's in town 3) my guy cousin calls me to tell me he got a girl knocked up by one weekend in Austin...WTF..REALLY???  How can I possibly think of anything else when everyone is getting preggo around me.  It's so frustrating I could scream!!!!!!!!!!!!

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CaliCutie81
CaliCutie81

When it rains it pours :( I am so sorry you got hit with all of this at once. Its not fair that on top of AF coming to ruin the party you have to deal with all those people and their new babies and announcements. Thats great for them but you need time to process and deal with your hurt and sadness.
Glad you are taking time for yourself though, meditation is wonderful, I should actually do more of it.
You are stronger than you know and keep in mind that your miracle is worth fighting for and you will appreciate it so much when it happens.
For now though, go ahead and scream, its just as therapeutic as meditating in my opinion :)
krjohnson1980
krjohnson1980

Thanks CalCutie81, I hate to be so cynical and trust me I hate to complain. You\'re right, it just all came down at one time when I wasn\'t feeling my best. I\'m mustering up the strength to go to the doc tomorrow for my CD3 scan.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hey Im in the same boat, just got my blood tested and a BFN, feeling really frustrated! Hope you find your peace.. sometimes even screaming out aloud helps...! I am so sorry that you got swamped with a lot of pregnancy news in just such a short time.. it always happens at the wrong time! well.. this is truly a terrible roller coaster ride and hoping that we all get to get off the crazy ride sooon... till then great that you are meditating to calm yourself down... i have to try and do that too... hugs to u xoxo
krjohnson1980
krjohnson1980

Thanks Kattypuppy! I\'m feeling a bit better today and I\'m back on the Chlomid. Are you goin another round?