Angry
Sorry to say i'm seething with anger at the way I've been treated over the last two years since getting ill again. Maybe it's the quiet here or the added hardships of living that are bringing out of me. I have never felt this way before and is frightening, alien to me and yet I could explode in seconds if approached in the wrong way. So sick of not living in the peace I crave. maybe I should just disapear. It seems so appealing. I have found a new lady that has started at the day hospital who we just seem to click together. Everything has been perfect but i'm aware that I'm supposed to be unhealthy to live with according to the professionals and that I had given up on relationships in order to persue the spiritual path again. we shall see what happens but it would be good to hold her and spend time together. Very scared I will hurt her as i'm said to have done with my X. Confused, feeling very ill and not to hot at all and slipping downwards. Large dose of tranqs and beta blockers to keep me calm tonight. seriously fed up with no wish to see another day.
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Your choice. Do not be angry but accept and do your best and God will bless you. Don\'t believe what is said, believe what is in your heart. You are a loving caring individual that God created in his image. Let go and Let God. Be happy, move forward and start enjoying. I know you can do it. God created us to be together if you enjoy this woman\'s company I say GO FOR IT!!
Sorry you are huring Dave. You have had a big transision recently, only normal to look back and reflect on what brought you to this point in time. Please be good to yourself.... savor thost little moments of tranquility(you love nature) and keep telling yourself that you deserve to be happy, you brain is processing the words even if you don\'t realize it. Hope you feel better soon my dear! God Bless.
Sometimes I need reminding of some of my most basic teachings!
You have to be aware everyday that at times when things get edgy you have to ask yourself; Am I going to practice peace or am I going to war?
Sorry for my failing practice. More time and self honesty is needed.
The lady in question seems more perfect with every meeting. She seems happy to be good mates and have alot in common and very easy to be with. I can\'t help thinking this is a distraction from what i\'m meant to be doing with my life. Gretchen you know what I\'ve felt for many years. I still can\'t decide?
Anger is hard to deal with. I know i get it too. I try to calmly talk to myself in my head before going to the city centre cause i know i will get angry down there. People who are rude and pushy get to me but i need to relax. You can do it too. Dont bottle things up and try to think calmly about something you know is going to make you angry before you do it. Things will get better. Dont give up