An update I suppose

I seem to have a lot of people interested in my well-being, so this is for you guys.  The honest truth is the only thing that helps me when on DS is when I feel like I'm helping others cope.  I like the feeling of being a counselor, but the bottom line is I'm not... and until I can say that I'm at least in school to be something, I feel like fraud and that my critics are right .  I have moved from Michigan and moved in with a friend who I met here on DS to tide my loneliness.  I felt like such a burden living with my sister that is became too unbearable.  I'm now only 3 hours away from my parents, so seeing them more with help too. The town I live in now has a rather large Mental hospital right here in town despite the town only being 5,000 population.  I have not and will not give up on being a Psychiatrist. But the taking the steps in the right direction have proven difficult.  Thus the reason I've stayed away so long.