an update

I resolved the situation after taking the valuable advice that was offered to me here on this platform and for that I will forever be greatful. I talked it out with my best friend and explained my side of things to which she gracfully accepted my sincre apologies and although I carry some residual anxiety, I know things are going to be okay. School is cancelled for the next two weeks here due to the virus (which has been a point of concern for me but I am trying my best not to worry to much) and I am taking this as a chance to get caught up on school work that I missed during my depressive episode, that way i'll be all caught up on my work when I get back and I'll have a fresh starts of sorts. I am very lucky to have all of you guys on here because it really keeps me going. I am excited to share some news with you guys that I've gotten five scholarships (two of which are full ride) to five different schools out of the nine schools to which I applied and got accpeted too! I got accepted into a couple of the honors programs as well. I know that college will be a challenge but it is something that I am looking forward to. gaining independence in a sense and finding my own place in the world and I figure the more I throw myself out there, maybe the less scary everything will be at the end of the day. someone told me I gotta spread my wings and I have a feeling they're right. I am anxious about how I am going to keep up with the school work in college and being away from home but I also know that I have to have faith in myself and trust in God and the fact that everything will work out in the end. I always end up having mixed emotions when it comes to life. it's difficult to be positive about life when you spent the majority of your life feeling hopeless. I still struggle a lot and everyday is a challenge filled with trials and tribulations. However, like all of us here, I am a fighter and sometimes we lose some of the battles but that does not mean that we lost the war. I hope we all win the war that is raging inside each one of us. I know I have nothing but faith in my fellow warriors.