an update

just a little update. iv been struggling reely badly :( i sent my ex bf a txt updating him on how iv been getting on and his reply was oh well not my problen deal with it yourself:O i mean we were together 2 years he knows everything about me.. past and present the one person i trust n he throws it bk in my face:(, also i emailed my abuser asking y he hurt me etc the reply i wanna ask the same question y why did u ruin my life iv been goin throough hell and bk this is all ur fault:O tht made me think is it my fault:O i stayed in my room where the assult happened last sat:O it was so difficult bt i made it. im going bk today to see frineds from work and stay there bt im scared tbh as im not well i just wan sleep bt doc gave me more sleeping tablets yesterday so should help 

any advice would be appreciated x