An angry monster...
Yes, that is what I am turning into!! Ladies I feel so upset at my inability to have any control over my infertility. This sucks because I work with my dear second graders, have a love for children, and heck kids like me!! Then, I hear my husband talking with his daughter and having the experience that I long for and I have to keep it together NOT to get jeolous. THIS moment, is not a good one. IN THIS MOMENT I FEEL FRUSTRATION, ANGER, and RESENTMENT!! IN THIS MOMENT I CAN SCREAM!! In another moment yes I will feel peace and a sense of solace. BUT IN THIS MOMENT, its not okay, its not fine, I wont get through this, shut up and stop telling me that crap!! HELL NO I AM NOT OKAY!! whew.. maybe I can get this out and move on with my evening...life gets on my nerves!! It is what it is and this moment will pass..
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I copletely understand and agree. At times this roller coaster of infertility is unbearable. People always say that means you need to take some time away. Well that doesn\'t stop you feeling upset and resentful. Get it all out that is what this site is for. Expressing those intense emotions will help them to pass faster. The more you bottle the worse you will feel. I am here for you so vent, yell, and scream(as well as you can on the internet) all you want. :)
I think it is so great that you let yourself feel like this. as long as the \"ok\" moments out number these hard moments, you\'re doing fine!
Everything you are feeling we have all felt. and i agree, i am soo sick of hearing \"everything will work out\"
really?? you can see the future now???? when people say \"oh it will happen eventually\" i am so annoyed i now say \"actually it might not. its science not stress. there is something wrong with my reproductive system.\"
i tell my husband like ten times a week that i HATE EVERYONE!!!
i hope you let this moment take you away, and pass, so you can have a good week.
love, baby dust, etc,
sandi
Let the church say, \"AMEN!!!!\"
I understand how you feel...keep ur head up!!