An angry monster...

Yes, that is what I am turning into!! Ladies I feel so upset at my inability to have any control over my infertility. This sucks because I work with my dear second graders, have a love for children, and heck kids like me!! Then, I hear my husband talking with his daughter and having the experience that I long for and I have to keep it together NOT to get jeolous. THIS moment, is not a good one. IN THIS MOMENT I FEEL FRUSTRATION, ANGER, and RESENTMENT!! IN THIS MOMENT I CAN SCREAM!! In another moment yes I will feel peace and a sense of solace. BUT IN THIS MOMENT, its not okay, its not fine, I wont get through this, shut up and stop telling me that crap!! HELL NO I AM NOT OKAY!! whew.. maybe I can get this out and move on with my evening...life gets on my nerves!! It is what it is and this moment will pass..