AMAZING

Isn't it so amazing how one person can change your mood? I am ftm (Female To Male) Transgender, and I was let down by everyone in my family today. Everyone is telling me to apoligize, when I didn't do anything wrong. I made my guardian sad, because I wanted a boy haircut. She yelled at me screaming that I am a girl, she was very unsupportive of what I wanted done. Then she got mad at me for not getting it done, and now she's moving away and leaving me behind. Yet everyone expects me to apoligize, I think not! So today I was feeling very suicidal, and I felt like killing myself and that my life was over. I am a novelist, and I couldn't even write. That's an example of how bad I felt, until I got a message. From my crush, and she helped me inside a lot. She reminded me that I have people in my life that care, and one day I'm going to be able to transition. That the day is four years away, but I can still get through this. She told me that I was strong, and she reminded me of all the reasons not to give up. Not to let go, and I think it might actually get better. I have a strong friend support, and I can get through this! So to everyone out there just know, it will be okay. Please don't give up, and if you don't have that somebody.. Then I'll be that somebody. <3 It's amazing how someone can change your total emotions. It's amazing how much of an impact someone can have on somebody else, and I'm grateful to have support. -Trans Blogger