Am I starting to accept the OW?

While catching up on some well earned rest today or at least trying to. I took a late afternoon nap and woke up having a dream (2nd of this kind in the last two weeks) that I either lived with my ex and his new gf - or I reached out to her as a friend and that we all got along as one huge family. What in the world is going on with me? Have I accepted that this woman is going to be apart of my life, so as I would do anyone else, am I subconsiously opening my heart to her?  Before responding, please look at my journal unless you already know my story and just how bitter I feel about this woman. I am truly confused.