Am I ok?

Am I ok?  No.  I was sober for almost 2 months.  I was doing AMAZING.  Then my husband and I had a chance to be alone.  Kiddo went to his mom's house for the night.  I convinced him that I could handle a night out WITH HIM.  We did, and I had a massive hangover for 2 days. SUCKY.  Then, he left again.  Back to the evil town to start his new job.  I'm SO proud of him.  CAPS don't even explain how proud of him that I am.  BUT, we went out Sat night and here I am...NO kiddo and drinking again.  I don't have my kiddo.  She's with my mom tonight.  I tried to deny it, but couldn't.  Feel like a POS. :(