am I crazy?

Funny thing when I look at this site....I feel guilty. There are all these people who are so worse off than me...I mean I'm pretty functional.....so I feel like I should feel more lucky. On the flip side...this illness bugs the heck out of me! Am always afraid they're going to fire me for calling in to work, afraid to go to another job because of firing. Hate not knowing my limits anymore. In college I could slug through anything...then came the age of 26 and the floor dropped out! THUNK!
Ironies of ironies....hubby has been complaining of me being "not happy" and is blaming it on my being on this site! The only place I really sometimes get to vent! Gee, do u think it could be the whole hubby not employed, losing medical insurance in two months, don't know if we can live on unemployment, thing that is looming over us??? He doesn't get it. He can manage to have this casual "what'll be be" attitude until something goes wrong which he blames on his "luck". I can't. I stress. I always know the reality of the situation and what the worst case scenario could be. I try to be positive for my mental sanity but sometimes it is really hard.
Anywho...I'm going to end this mininovel that is dripping with sarcasm! Maybe change my mood with some mahjong after I change the tile types. (The one I played last night looked ridiculous!)
Moore later -- Genny