Always return to an empty home without you....
Well another travel adventure with my BFF's ....oh what fun we had at The Biggest Loser Resort Fitness Ridge.... Met some incredibly inspiring people, long days you would have loved it working out 6 hours a day and eating right....great education on nutrition.and exercise and felt like a million bucks... Who knew.... The body is an incredible machine and very capable of being pushed .... Home 3 days and have been on 2 hikes and eating better.... Trying to quit the sugar and caffeine didn't miss it at the resort... So here I am again home to an empty house ....you aren't here to watch the video or for me to tell you all about it.... No one missing me while I was gone, calling to see how things were going.... Oh yes I have friends who care but it's not you.... I hate coming home and want to continue to run...travel have fun be with people 24/7. Eat with people wake up with people.... I'm trying so hard to be happy and create a. New life ...but the emptiness remains , the heart continues to ache , the mind remembers ...and the tears flow
Still miss you so. Very very much.....hope you are well. I know you are with me in spirit I feel you in my heartÂ
Still miss you so. Very very much.....hope you are well. I know you are with me in spirit I feel you in my heartÂ
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I know the feeling......I just spent a week in Mexico sharing a room with a family member....it was wonderful not to be alone! May it bring you comfort to know your hubby IS with you always in your heart and his spirit.
Hugs Lu Ann
...i have just returned from a visit away and everything you wrote about the return is SO understood....sending some hugs.....
When you go with your friends on these adventures. He is already with you. As you said, and i believe you can feel him inside your heart. When you come home, and the house is empty, (I know the feeling), remember as you watch those videos of the fun your had? He is watching it right along with yu, through YOUR EYES. He is a paert of what those eyes see now. He is a part of what you do, where you go, and who you meet. I truly do believe that they DO know when when we cry, when we feel joy, when we ache, and in the best way they can be, they are right inside us cheering us on to keep going.
I know the feeling of wanting to run. I\'ve had that feeling so many times especially in the beginning. It took me a long time and still I\'m learning that I just can\'t outrun it. I just have to believe in the love we had, and that that will keep giving me the strenght i need to to live, and make this life something to be proud of.
From all you have written, YOU ALREADY ARE.
HUGS of understanding, and hopes for peace when you get home after you have your trips, and know that in spirit, he is ALWAYS waiting for you to relive it and as you do, he\'s listening to every word.
Diane
I think you are doing great--an inspiration to all of us--getting out and doing the things you know are healthy and good for you. He may not be physically at home waiting for you, but he\'s there in spirit cheering you on.
We do have them in our hearts and mind, carrying them with us always. Our memories of the special times together may cause sadness at times, but so treasured.
As hard as it is,this walk and new life without our loved ones, you are an inspiration and help to many----Sal
I know exactly what you mean when you come home to an empty house. I too was away with friends for 8 days and it was so good to have someone there 24/7. Yes they are with us but it not the same.....you want to have them to share your story with when you get home......hugs