Already a year!

Well this Thursay April 5th will be one year since i had my miscarriage with baby whitaker! By far one of the most saddest days in my life! If i wouldnt of miscarried baby whitaker he would he/she would be 4 mths old today! I can already tell thursday is going to be hard. Yesterday coming home from work i heard a sad song on the radio and i lost all control of my tears. Luckly i was in my car alone! I got home and walked inside and hubby asked what was wrong and i told him i was fine it was just my allergies! LIE! But i dont have the guts to pull him into my slougth of sadness! Iam so ready for this week to be over with! Oh iam sry i havent been around alot! I been super busy with work! Miss all you ladies!