Alone in love

I am happy I am sadSo peaceful SO MADNever stableAlways turbulence Its so disturbingOn my flight called USI cant winCant lose youNot sureWhat to do Want foreverMe and youBut I lustFor sweet death tocant be sureJust what to thinkWhat to feel Should I drink?Take more pillsTill I am IllOr maybe this timeIll be killedNever togetherNever alone Cant even talk On the phoneI cant reach youHold you tightCry myself to sleepEvery night Such a fightSuch a plight I just wantTo make things rightIll do my bestEveryday To make the troubles Go awayMay not be easyBut its worth itIf I end up with youLife would be perfectBut for now I am aloneIn such deep loveall alone