Alone for the first time

After recently getting out of a emotionally abusive marriage, I have found myself alone for yhe first time in 14 years. I don't know what to do with myself. I know that going for a run or of getting out and doing something would help, but I can't seem to make myself want to. I just want to curl up in a ball which feels strange, because I figured once I got my freedom I would take it and fly, but I have not found my wings yet