Alone. fed up. Alone. Ugh.

So I am in England..It hasn't turned out to be so good..I just feel so alone and I wana go home or run away so I can get better. I have slipped back so much during being in this country. I hate it at home. I hate it here. I don't fit anywhere. I am pulling away from everyone again. I type things and txt words then delete them before I send them because I realise that it doesn't actually matter. I fed up with this life. Really.