Alone again on Christmas Day!

I wish I had someone to love and love me back but I am always left alone. To be alone. I wanted so much not to be hated for once in my life but the older we get the more forgotten we become it seems. Seems I do for others and nothing comes back and I am tired and old. I regret never having a wife and children. I am handicapped and so society throws me away as a piece of damaged scrap. I tried to better my life so many times I can not count the ways. Life for me was one big disappointment. I am not strong enough to change it anymore since I am in lots of pain.