Alone again- makes me sad

Dear Roger
I enjoyed the hunters, you and I met in 2007 - we became sorta friends, seeing them & conversing just one night during their coming in the area at hunting season. Well, I really got to met 3 of the 5 that are still with us really good. I invited them to stay with me at my home. I really had a good time w/them. They really like Chelsea (she did not make up w/Bill for some reason???) but they left yesterday @ noon. Made me cry, & sad as having someone around I realized helps. BUT I am proud these are now life long friends - they said expect a Christmas Card, they enjoyed my hospitality & friendship. I did it just me, do not know why what means that much but I just feel good IT WAS ME THAT got this friendship for life. What they said to me about staying here & financially making it hit home. I was sorta leaning on staying but I know I can not financially make it - but like they said how to get out of this place into another one without losing my shirt.....
It hit me strange that I felt so alone once they were really gone. Even Chelsea yesterday afternoon about the time this last wk they came back from hunting was looking for them. And I missed the 3 pickups in the driveway - it seems so empty now. I was not expecting that reaction but you know - its the loneliness....
Well we had 2.3 earthquake, 20 miles west of Naches which puts it ~ right in our front yard...slept through it all but no electricity for ~ 4 - 5 hours. Not sure if its because of the small quake or not. Took me awhile to get generator going but I did - had the pellet stove, tv and microwave going so all was well there.
 
Trying to do things - shake off the blues....its Moms birthday - 85 today but shes not feeling well so does not want to do or go anywhere....
Guess I better put snow tires on for going over passes Tues than over Cabbage Patch in Oregon to Boise next weekend. You would have been 70 yrs old in one week....sad. Your dad was 96, your stepMom is now 95....You thought you would that old also but you died same age as your Mother....
Miss you - miss us - miss being a part of some one's life...
 
 

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cleodoggie
cleodoggie

I am glad you enjoyed the hunters. Have you ever thought of taking in a boarder? You would have someone around and the money would help you. Just a suggestion, I found it\'s best not to dwell on old peoples ages and wonder why...there is no answer you know. Jim was gone at 60 and he will be forever young in my mind. Yet my dad is 82 and still kicking as he would say. When it\'s our time we die. Happy Birthday to your mom. Snow tires sound like a good idea. Hugs to you.
Nicker07
Nicker07

I live 40+ miles from any town, so anyone renting room from me would be hard to find right person.
radioworld
radioworld

I know the sadness, I hope your friends continue to bring you comfort, companionship is so very important, and friendship is a wonderful gift to receive. Happy Birthday to your mom. Stay warm
Maria