Alone

Not sure why I"m even bothering. My kids are grown now and I'm trying to find my own life.

I even met somebody. He said he loved me,but the whole time he was fraternizing with other girls (half his age)

I thought it was him and not me. My ex husband constantly cheated on me, I thought it was him and not me.

I think it's me. My family organizes outings and often (not all the time,forgets about me).

I went out on a few dates andnever get passed the first.

I hate to think it's because I'm fat and ugly,   but I'm not mean,or selfish or anything like that.

I have been accused of being too nice, though.

I don't want to be alone but I'm not sure how to change so that I don't repell people.