Almost Done
The journal copying is tedious, but almost done. Been copying in the pre-blog journal order where the first entry is at the top. When I finally get to the top of the blog order, whatever entry finishes it out will be the last in the copied order, just like in the bad old days of printed books and my hand-written journals.
I'm still waffling on whether to close my account. I'm not sure I've ever formally closed a non-fiscal internet account.
In the mysteries of group chemistry combined with my strictly personal social anxiety behind my frequent flier psychosis, this group might be viable again in the future. Who knows. For now, I think I'll just let the mystery be.
Back to the copying. 22 pages down, 10 to go.
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Oh no :'( please don't leave. I would be so sad without you. My heart hurts just thinking about it. But. I feel guilty like this is emotional blackmail but it is also true so I don't know.
Not to worry and definitely not worthy of guilt, my admired friend. We are both resourceful. If my long journey from child prostitute to comfortable retiree has taught me anything, it is that where there is a will there is a way.
For what it's worth, I'm not that easy to blackmail. The ancient art of blackmail is built on keeping secrets. You know me better than that. . .
Besides. . . It takes a village to live a healthy life. I am but a solitary cottage.
But you are the first cottage that the rest of the village was built around. What happened? Who upset you? It is not right that you should be feeling like this.
I can't get into the details without violating the "No Gossip" rule. I take that rule mighty seriously. Who can feel comfortable revealing their deepest, most tender wounds if they are worried about tables full of gossips rubbing salt in those wounds?
Besides, I am not at all certain that the problem isn't within my own strictly personals. The journey from child prostitute to comfortable retiree has required ALLOT of healing transitions in my healing needs. Moving from one phase to the next is a necessary piece of that. One of the signals which tell me my needs are changing is when a particular group/therapist doesn't quite fit any more. Nothing wrong with the group. *I* am the one who is changing.
Please don't leave. I enjoy the way you write ;-)
As I enjoy the way you write, Chris. Such talent is greater than the audience.
As for my own writing. . . I'm not a writer. This really is therapy. I'm just sorting that confusing journey from child prostitute to beaten crazy bitch wolf to comfortable eccentric.
please don't go :( i don't get it either. your being here is important though.
You don't need to get it, Admired Brat. It is not yours to sort.
Healing hopes for all. No exceptions.
hi arfie,
I am a little confused and pretty sure i missed a whole bunch of stuff that lead to this post. Anywho, may the blessing you wish for the souls you love come back to you on your journey where ever you may go a million fold. triple hug~
and may my journey cross yours again someday soon~
wow... !!! I just watched the movie Mission to MARS the end credit music still playing... ??? Have you seen IT ???? What CAN I say
ARE you taking the journey from Mars into the future of unknown possibility
ARE the rest of us going back to Earth???
Life does have a series of good byes we all have to say so we can get to where we need to get to
Is??? hello or I heard in Texas some say Heaven-o... any whoo... is hello the door opening to the future of unknown possibility in our lives???
I'm sure my mind is seeing things I am not able to write in a proper from right now so I should just say... may the force be with you or live long and prosper or good night
Oh how i would/will miss you,Dear arfie.
You have always been there for me....
Your soul is gentle and beautiful.
Know This.
((((((Arfie))))))
I hope you don’t leave too, I’m not saying that to be stressful to you, just want to be honest
You’re a special person & have helped me a lot of times, maybe more than you know & im sure that I’m not the only person on this boards life you have touched & nothing can ever change that.
Maybe you don’t have to make a desicion rite away & can just sit on it?
I’m sorry if you’re hurting too & just know you have a friend in me
Gentlest of hugs <3 <3
Arfie, you have been a stable and influential part of my time here over the years. I feel I have missed too on the why's, but I also have had connection problems lately. If it wasn't sorting through the anni's of my own trauma triggers, classes on abuse I felt stomped in , or the family woes, it was technical difficulties. Even those you helped me on. But I also know that when a break is beckoning, then taking it is the right thing. Hopes that it is just a break.
You often say healing hopes for all...sometimes it only takes stepping back for a better view.
Leave the door there, just let go of the handle for a bit.
You know that many who have been here awhile value you...me included. In my life I have had too many leave that I didn't wanted to.So send me a smoke signal when things calm.
Hugs and support.
Jewell