almost done
Beta is on Friday and I already feel like I am out. between the cramps and the overall "blah and achy" feeling, I just dont see how it could work. There is no more IVF for us after this - aside from not having the coverage for it as of May 1 (and no other money to pay for it), I just can't see going through this emotional turmoil again. I don't mean to imply it's not worth it, because it IS. I am not sure I can deal with it and I am not sure my marriage could handle it.
I am feeling really down and out.
I am feeling really down and out.
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Well at least it will be here soon! I also felt really down and unlikely that it would happen only to be shocked that it was positive. I am so sorry your down about it right now but don\'t give up. I am thinking about you!
Oh honey I do understand. I am not as far on the IF chain as you have gone but am approaching it soon. My husband and I have talked about the what ifs or if we will even be able to afford it. Trying for that little miracle can be so stressful for everyone involved. I am hoping and praying for you and know that we are always here for you.
Just a few more days friend!!! And try and remember it ain\'t over till the BETA results are in!!! I am staying hopeful for you!
Its not over until after your blood test. lots of ladies do not feel pregnant this early and most symptoms of PMS go hand in hand with early pregnancy symptoms. Hang in there!
Hang in there! I\'m rooting for you and hoping your beta proves you wrong!
Thinking about you hun and hoping for the best.
The 2ww wait is SO hard...especially when you just don\'t feel positive. I have heard countless people say they were sure it hadn\'t worked only to have it turn out positive. So don\'t give up quite yet.
I wanted to tell you...the way you expressed your feelings really resonated with me. I\'m not sure I can express what I\'m trying to say very well...but I\'ll try. I have been feeling much the same way lately. I wonder if sometimes we get stuck in the \'no matter what it takes\' mentality. Mostly because we KNOW that it IS so worth it....if it works.
But here\'s the rub. What if it doesn\'t? Was it worth it then? I wonder if we have to decide how far we are willing to go...how much we are willing to sacrifice...but with that question in the back of our minds. Are we willing to sacrifice our physical health? our mental health? our relationships? our marriage?
What if we sacrifice those thingsand it doesnt workand we end up still without a child, but without those other things too?
Because we are in the situation where we have to fight like hell for what others take so for granted...we end up having to ask ourselves some pretty tough questions.
But I think that there is a strength we gain from knowing the answers to those questions. It can carry us through some very rough times - which, let\'s face it, we have more than our share.
As hard as it can be to let go of our desires in my opinion, God-given and wonderful desires it comes down to a choice. Its NOT FAIR that we have to make those choices. Some days I am SO angry. Some days I am beyond devastated. Those days will probably always be there. But I feel strengthened from knowing what I am willing to give up and what I am absolutely not.
What Im trying to say, I guess, is that I am praying you will be strengthened, comfortedand be able to make those hard choices if they come. And choosing your marriagethat, I think, is the most wonderful choice
Praying for you!
Like my \"favorite-fertility-Nurse\" Rosa always use to say to me \"it ain\'t over \'till it\'s over\".. I know it is super hard to wait and scary to think of this being your last chance but hang in there hon, you could still get your BFP! Good luck with the BETA on Friday! XO