almost a week

So like the title says it;s been almost a week since I cut. It's been going well. I can't bring myself to throw out the razors just yet,I know I should. 
I'm so worried about money lately, I feel stupid for spending so much of my tax return. I didn't buy a whole lot of things i didn't need that I can remember, and allot of it my roommate said that she would split the cost with me... I hope she can pay me back soon. 
I get my student loan sometime in the next couple weeks, I hope I have enough money left for rent tomorrow. I have to take my dog to the vet,I set aside money for that I just hope it's enough.
I have issues with control. When I can't control something it drives me nuts. Like my roommate paying me back, or how much it will cost at the vet, or even when my money will come in for school.
School starts next week and I can't get any of the books or expensive supplies until my loan comes in :/I'm worried my profs won't care. I'm worried I won't be able to handle the stress, that I'm not smart enough. That I will fail again. So many things out of my control...