all I think about

Hi anyone - All I am thinking about is SI and food.  I'm 70 years old thinking I've done this soooooo long that it's so ingrained that I'll never stop.  Today it feels like I don't care. I don't know what it is that triggered it all over again.  That's the way it goes with me. Now I know I need to tell my group that I don't think the therapy with the group is going to work for me. I feel disappointment, failure, hopeless, and tired. Does anyoneunderstand????MaryinLouisville