all alone again...

(all of the following is a letter to myself, based only upon my experiences.)

once again, the same old story.  tried and true as always.  women don't want a relationship, they don't desire actual happiness or any type of a nice calm reality...they solely exists to take everything they can from a man.  simple as that. take take take take take, oh wait, forgot to stop and be inexplicably angry for hours, now, back to take take taking.

whether it be financial, emotional or just all around physical (as in posessions not in giving the man any kind of fun for once)

she will take and take and suck your non existent soul from you

all the while attempting to make you believe that they are even the slightest bit interested in you as a person, 

you are effectively nothing more than  wallet.

Jennifer, much  like Kathleen, Kassi, Marki, Gwen and Jenny before her,

was never interested in Cody the man

it was either cody the provider, cody the fuck machine, or cody the one who pays for absolutely everything

Jennifer is still here, but she's quite possibly finally leaving.  after all the times i screamed and meant it every time, for her and her useless fucking dogs to get the fuck out of my house, and now that the 168 thousand dollars is gone, she seems to somehow have found it within herself to get up and go.  she wont do it soon, she'll walk about the house a shell of a woman forcing us into a shell of our relationship as a shell of myself sits back and ponders whether or not i could get away with strangling her, or whether or not id really fucking care if i didnt get away with it.

shes terrible, no morals, no ethics, no fucking manners.  shes a dirt human and i dont say that bc im angry and hurt i say that bc that is just what she is and i live my life, based in and around factual information.

after all these fights, after all the times ive said i want you out of my house, i want you to leave my house, i know youre a lying ass liar and i want you the fuck out of my house this goddamned instant, she never budged.

now she will go

right when my money ran out

fucking disguistingly despicable cunt

shame on me