Alexa's First Communion
Dear John,
Well it's a little over a year since you have been gone and it feels like forever. Lexi made her first communion yesterday and you would have been so proud of her. Pat came with me and it was really great having his support. Alexa wanted to take a picture with Me and Pat and before we knew it Maddox had jumped in the picture too. They had tried getting him to take his picture before but he didn't want to but he absolutely loves Pat. I know you would have liked him too. He is different yet so much like you, he has a Heart of Gold and loves your girls and grandkids. He says he wants to take care of us and I know he truly means it. Your Dad and Ms. Billie came too and they were so proud of Lexi. It was truly a blessed event we know your presence was there as you are buried in the graveyard behind the Church and on the school grounds. Alexa and Maddox can visit you whenever they feel they need to talk to you I wasn't sure how it would affect them but they are truly amazing kids but I don't have to tell you that you already know it. Well the bug (Tink) is giving me problems again everyone says I should get rid of her and get a new one. I just don't know what to do I absolutely love her and hate to spend the money on a new one it is cheaper to keep getting her fixed. How you loved her, guess it was because she has a turbo (LOL). Feel like a school girl when I am riding in her. Guess maybe it is time for me to grow up right, NOT "TINK" will always bring out the best in me. Went to Gulf Shores last weekend with Pat and had a great time. It is really amazing how after you passed I realized that there are things in life that people argue about fuss over that are really not worth the time as life is so short. I have truly become a different person I am finding me again the girl you married, not the "Wife", "Mother", "Grandmother", "Daughter", "Sister", "Sister-in-Law", "Daughter-in-Law", but "Me" honest to goodness just "ME". I am learning to Smile again and look forward to the future as it holds so many possibilities. I never in a million years would have thought that I would be in this situation but I have learned to cope and realize that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. But if he puts someone in your life it is up to you to do something about it. I am truly happy baby and I love and Miss you so much. Dra'
Well it's a little over a year since you have been gone and it feels like forever. Lexi made her first communion yesterday and you would have been so proud of her. Pat came with me and it was really great having his support. Alexa wanted to take a picture with Me and Pat and before we knew it Maddox had jumped in the picture too. They had tried getting him to take his picture before but he didn't want to but he absolutely loves Pat. I know you would have liked him too. He is different yet so much like you, he has a Heart of Gold and loves your girls and grandkids. He says he wants to take care of us and I know he truly means it. Your Dad and Ms. Billie came too and they were so proud of Lexi. It was truly a blessed event we know your presence was there as you are buried in the graveyard behind the Church and on the school grounds. Alexa and Maddox can visit you whenever they feel they need to talk to you I wasn't sure how it would affect them but they are truly amazing kids but I don't have to tell you that you already know it. Well the bug (Tink) is giving me problems again everyone says I should get rid of her and get a new one. I just don't know what to do I absolutely love her and hate to spend the money on a new one it is cheaper to keep getting her fixed. How you loved her, guess it was because she has a turbo (LOL). Feel like a school girl when I am riding in her. Guess maybe it is time for me to grow up right, NOT "TINK" will always bring out the best in me. Went to Gulf Shores last weekend with Pat and had a great time. It is really amazing how after you passed I realized that there are things in life that people argue about fuss over that are really not worth the time as life is so short. I have truly become a different person I am finding me again the girl you married, not the "Wife", "Mother", "Grandmother", "Daughter", "Sister", "Sister-in-Law", "Daughter-in-Law", but "Me" honest to goodness just "ME". I am learning to Smile again and look forward to the future as it holds so many possibilities. I never in a million years would have thought that I would be in this situation but I have learned to cope and realize that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. But if he puts someone in your life it is up to you to do something about it. I am truly happy baby and I love and Miss you so much. Dra'
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\"If he puts someone into your life it\'s up to you to do something about it\". WOW. i LOVED that. It IS up to each and everyone of us how to cope, and how to begin to THRIVE being who we ARE. I\'m learning that as well, and I\'m happy that I am!
The person YOU are is AMAZING. It\'s wonderful that the children have theri dad right there for them whenever they need to talk to him. what a great a devoted mom, and a GREAT lady you are.
WONDERFUL entry and one I am honored to read! HUGS to you and keep on keepin on!! Diane
Tink,
I am glad for you that you are truly happy,and that you have found you again.I agree with you the things couples argue about are truly not worth it,especially when we know how short life is sometimes.I know if I could turn back the clock now I wouldn\'t argue over some of the silly things we argued about.
I am glad you are truly happy now.As we all know the first year is so hard with all the special events in the family and holidays and all the firsts without them here to celebrate with us.I know you will always keep John in your heart and memories,but I know you will also keep moving forward because your a strong person and a survivor.I hope you can fix Tink,she is so cute just like her owner.
((((Hugs Sadie)))
Andree\',
Glad to hear the \"happiness\" in your words. TJ
You sound happy and I\'m happy for you.
Thanks to each and everyone for listening and all the support ya\'ll have given me, because of what ya\'ll have shared it has made my journey a little easier. Thanks again, Hugs, Andree\'