Alone...
I'm 7 or 8 weeks pregnant now.. I feel like my boyfriend has been trying to push me awayI want us to work but it doesn't seem like things are looking upHe called me a slut and a bitch and I have not given him any reason to do soI dont feel like im anything special to him.. i just want someone who will love me and not call me names... my child wont have a father is this really is goodbye.. at least not until i find someone who will care for me as much as he will care for my child.yeah i have friends and family that support me but sometimes i think that wont be enough..i wanted my boyfriend to be the father of my child and now he is but doesnt want to be in my life.. so how can he be in the babies.. i dont want to be with him if im truly unhappy with it.he says hes just going to go off to the marines.. that leaves me alone..9 months of being pregnant with no support from the fatherits depressing and its stressful and thats the least i need if i want a healthy baby..For some reason when I'm ready to kill myself theres something always holding me backI'm not sure what though because i feel so helpless and i dont see anything bright in my futureI feel alone and empty.. I'm not happy.. I need to get out of here.. come may I think im just going to move to south carolina with my grandma and get a job down there for a couple years till i can go to college.I dont even know what I want to do with my life.. I get on here to get support to and i only get a couple people who will take the time to read my journals.. i know i dont seem to keep up with everyone elses but im not too good with advice anyways... what to do...
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I\'m sorry to hear things aren\'t working out too well. I really thought you two were gonna stay together for a while. It seems like you\'ve got a few things figured out as to what you should do now. Just don\'t die, okay? No matter how bad things get, they always get better. Besides, there\'s no way you can leave your baby behind. You can get through this. Just be strong. Someday, maybe you can find someone who won\'t be the baby\'s real father, but he\'ll act like it and care for the baby. If it means anything at all, I\'m here for you.