Airsoft
...so I have made a new goal for myself here on DS and it's to,"become more active".
I finally figured that after all this time that I needed at least one athletic hobby to balance out the hundreds of other hobbies where all I do is sit on my butt. Granted, work keeps me from gaining any eight...but in the long run, I know that I need to start living a healthier lifestyle, and becoming more active is part of that.
Airsoft (by definition) is a game/competition of people dueling with BB guns. Basically you shoot at enemy teams, one hit, and you're out. Yeah...it hurts...and its tiring because there is a lot of running. When its hot, you're miserable, because you're wearing a lot of gear. But, it's the type of extreme that I feel I need in my life...which gets me to my second point of this blog.There is a reason that I decided to pick up Airsoft.
As most people know...my girlfriend is in the United States Army. What most people do NOT know is that I was going to go into the Marine Corps right after High School. The reason I did NOT go was because of a major falling out between myself and the person who was supposed to be my 'fiance'. I got so depressed that I put on a lot of weight. And because that happened, I no longer wanted to go into the military and be shoved around...I knew my mind could not handle that in my depressed and paranoid state.
I got a huge scholarship and lots of grants from the college I wanted...so I ditched the military idea and went through to college instead. A year later I met Taz, and then two years later...here I am.But...I never really forgot my desire to go military. I never forgot my want of a life of Glory, of Pride, and of Discipline. I never forgot that desire to be able to look back into the past and admire the things I had survived...the things I have been through.
I look at Taz's photos...I see her as a soldier and I am proud of my woman for having come this far. But, I am also highly jealous of her. I am jealous that she has become part of a family that I will never connect with, part of a sisterhood that will never be broken. I envy the fact that she will learn things that I will never be able to...see things I will never see...and do things that I could only dream of doing.Airsoft is based off of real military operations, military exercises, and is often held on military bases. It uses combat skills, symbols, and weapons based off of what a recruit learns during BMT. My battle buddy (I will call him B) is an Army Veteran. He plays Airsoft because he regrets that he left the service after his initial (???) years (when his contract was up)...he misses the Army and Airsoft gets him back in that zone...back in that time and place when he was a soldier. I play Airsoft so I can stop moping around feeling like some fat lump that isnt doing anything with her life.
It's silly...but I believe it will keep me sane AND it will help me keep my mind off of missing Taz so much. I hope it does...Anyways, wish me luck!!!
I finally figured that after all this time that I needed at least one athletic hobby to balance out the hundreds of other hobbies where all I do is sit on my butt. Granted, work keeps me from gaining any eight...but in the long run, I know that I need to start living a healthier lifestyle, and becoming more active is part of that.
Airsoft (by definition) is a game/competition of people dueling with BB guns. Basically you shoot at enemy teams, one hit, and you're out. Yeah...it hurts...and its tiring because there is a lot of running. When its hot, you're miserable, because you're wearing a lot of gear. But, it's the type of extreme that I feel I need in my life...which gets me to my second point of this blog.There is a reason that I decided to pick up Airsoft.
As most people know...my girlfriend is in the United States Army. What most people do NOT know is that I was going to go into the Marine Corps right after High School. The reason I did NOT go was because of a major falling out between myself and the person who was supposed to be my 'fiance'. I got so depressed that I put on a lot of weight. And because that happened, I no longer wanted to go into the military and be shoved around...I knew my mind could not handle that in my depressed and paranoid state.
I got a huge scholarship and lots of grants from the college I wanted...so I ditched the military idea and went through to college instead. A year later I met Taz, and then two years later...here I am.But...I never really forgot my desire to go military. I never forgot my want of a life of Glory, of Pride, and of Discipline. I never forgot that desire to be able to look back into the past and admire the things I had survived...the things I have been through.
I look at Taz's photos...I see her as a soldier and I am proud of my woman for having come this far. But, I am also highly jealous of her. I am jealous that she has become part of a family that I will never connect with, part of a sisterhood that will never be broken. I envy the fact that she will learn things that I will never be able to...see things I will never see...and do things that I could only dream of doing.Airsoft is based off of real military operations, military exercises, and is often held on military bases. It uses combat skills, symbols, and weapons based off of what a recruit learns during BMT. My battle buddy (I will call him B) is an Army Veteran. He plays Airsoft because he regrets that he left the service after his initial (???) years (when his contract was up)...he misses the Army and Airsoft gets him back in that zone...back in that time and place when he was a soldier. I play Airsoft so I can stop moping around feeling like some fat lump that isnt doing anything with her life.
It's silly...but I believe it will keep me sane AND it will help me keep my mind off of missing Taz so much. I hope it does...Anyways, wish me luck!!!
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