Ahhhhhh Man...

Just sitting here listening to Dream Theater....and I thought of her again...just like every other hour of day..and i love every thought. We went to a movie on Monday, still just as friends....and ahh my god. She blow's me away. Her smile...the way she smells...everything....and i mean everything. She's coming up to my trailer for the weekend this weekend...and Im looking very forward to it. But........ I keep having thoughts that maybe this isnt what i think it is, and im assuming it's because of my confidence right now is shot due to the divorce.  I'm a little afraid of this not going anywere...i think thats logical. Just because she makes me very happy...being around her is something i've long forgotten untill recently..back when i was 16 she used to make me feel this way too....ahhh im rambling. I think i may talk to her this weekend about a possibility of "us". I cannot wait any longer. If we are just to have a friendship, then i need to have that firmly planted into my head so i can..move on?  Anyway, should be a great weekend anyway, like i said just her company is enough to brighten my day on the worst of days.