Ahhh...the dark funk returns

I wonder if I'm bipolar.  Hanging around a couple of old friends whom I kinda distanced myself after my brother died (didn't really want to hang out with anybody), and the old familiar feelings are returning, not all of them good.  Those two, a couple, are not without their difficulties, and the tension gets unbearable at times.  Guess I gotta limit my time around them.  But it's good to be with some old familiar friends.  Remembering my roots.  Recognizing that I have a dark soul, and am comfortable with other dark souls.

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johnnycake
johnnycake

I\'m not a psychiatrist, but your self-diagnosis seems apt. You definitely exhibit the slow cyclical shift in mood that is characteristic of the condition. On the other hand, you have had a couple of big disappointments recently, so perhaps you are a bit more depressed than you would be in more normal times. If you haven\'t tried a late date involving chocolate, strong coffee and some vitamin A,B,C,D, E and F supplements recently, I\'d recommend that before trying a more radical approach. (wink, wink, nudge, nudge)
summerbda
summerbda

My DH was diagnosed w/bipolar..but I\'m not really sure I\'m buying it, because he was going thru such terrible things all at the same time...devorce/2 huge businesses gone (from economy) broke over-night....loosing so much! So I haven\'t really figured out if I believe his theripist or not?!
He has smoked alottttttt of pot in his life, and to me it seems more like missing brains cells...lol
Anyway sorry about your loss.....
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hey Kool, you could be, mention it to your shrink next time.
koolman
koolman

Thanks, peeps. Yes, I think loss has something to do with it. One keeps losing and losing and losing, and one wants to start gaining again, but the only gain that emerges is this dark animal that wants to survive. Maybe that\'s all we\'ve got anyway!
TheAnthemOfTheAngels
TheAnthemOfTheAngels

Honestly, from the posts I\'ve seen of you, though I don\'t know you really well, I don\'t see you as bipolar. I grew up with a severely bipolar father and you don\'t strike me as that. You can grieve a loss and be sad at times and happy at other times and that is completely and totally normal! It takes time to grieve. And sometimes the grieving process doesn\'t start until long after the death happens. Take your time with the grief and feel it fully. You will start gaining again I\'m sure of it. Sometimes all the bad comes at once. I had 8 years of it. I\'m expecting 16 good years in return, I\'ve already had 1 :) Good luck to you and always here to chat if you need.