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So rhis evening I'm supose to meet with my mother and "talk." I reeeaaaallllyyyyy don't want to. She is crazy and seld asorbed and I don't see that changing. I'm sure she will take no responsibility and I will just end up frustrated and upset. I have finally for the past few Months been happy and back to myself. I'm completely off my anti depresant drugs and have just been feeling like myself. This trip has been great with no stress or guilt trips or unrealistic expicatations. The pain they have caused is right now unforgivable and I'm not sure I even want a relationship with her at all. My father has not called me once or tried to see the baby. I hate him. He is a worrthless piece of crap that was a horrible father and apparently is continuing the tradition and being a horrible grandfather. He is a POS!!! I'm so thankfull and its only by the grace of God I turned out how I did and have the life I do. No thanks to them. I beat the odds. I have a great life a good faithfull husband and we are financially more stable than they have ever thought about being. My children will not go through the poverty I did due to my parents selfishness. There is being poor and then there is your parents putting there needs before yours. I was the later. Oh well wish me luck!!!
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Good luck hun!! I wish you the best today
Yikes! Why are you going to meet with her? At least you know what you are getting yourself into. You are a bigger person than I - I wouldn\'t make the effort if my mom acted like yours. I\'m so sorry you had a crappy childhood. I hope the visit is better than you expect! xoxo
Good luck, remember, they can\'t take from you what you aren\'t willing to give. You\'ve made peace with yourself and have moved on to bigger and better things. Do not give her the power to hurt you anymore. Sounds like she needs to be pitied to me. It is a pity she didn\'t do right by her beautiful daughter. You are a very strong woman and now you have a husband and son who are the world to you. She can\'t take that away. Be strong. BIG HUGS
Judy I don\'t want to BUT the christain in me is going. I have been in therapy for years because of them but I know I\'m strong enough now to not allow boundries to be crossed. I have no expictations going in so hopefully that will help.
Thanks Liz!!
wishing u lots of luck! thinking of u! xoxo
You are an amazing woman Nikki! In spite of all that you\'ve gone through you are strong, and persistent, and most importantly kind and loving. I\'m with Klima, she only has power over you if you give it to her, and it sounds like you\'ve taken it all back! Do what you need to do, and if that means talking to her (or trying to) then go in with no expectations, but also with boundaries in tact. Good luck!!